Reaffirmation

On tuesday, i had to present a Creativity assignment in one of my classes. I found myself to be stressing out and trying to figure out what the hell i wanted to present; it shouldn't have been that hard seeing that i'm a graphic design student. but in the end...i put so much thought into it my mind was completely boggled. after i sat down and just relaxed, i finally decided to just do the simplest thing and forget about having a "perfect" presentation topic, and just present my work that i have done in the past; a few prints, drawings, and an identity system.

tuesday morning rolls around, and i'm sweating buckets! i have never really had anyone other than my friends and family take a looksee at my art. i was anxious and had this ungodly feeling of nervousness in my stomach. i'm sitting next to one of my best friends, known the kid for 8 years, and he's joking around saying that i'm going to go up there and i'm going to be all shakey (if you don't know already, i'm always shakey). lo and behold, my professor calls my name, i gather all of my pieces and head up to the front of the class. my papers were flying all over the place and i was just a nervous-wreck! i have no idea why i was....i was in 8 plays in high school and had speaking roles in almost all of them!

so anyway, i get up to the front, hands shaking like an old man's, and i start to show my work. i could just feel all of the gazes upon my works. i get even more nervous! what was going through my classmates' minds...i have no clue. probably something like this "why is she being such a nutball!?"

i look up, and glance over at one kid in the class...and i just see a reassuring smile plastered on his face as i held up one of my favorite prints. this smile was what reaffirmed why i switched majors. (it also helps that this kid isn't too bad lookin' :P)

everyday i look for these little clues that God's plan is falling in place for me. maybe He wants me to start with my education and career before i find a man. i get stuck in these ruts where i never cease to doubt myself and think that i will never find someone to spend my life with. but these reminders help me to slowly get out of these ruts (feels like trenches sometimes).

so i would like to thank this particular guy for reaffirming my talents and abilities. you had faith in me and you may not even know this. so thank you :)

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song of the day: "Separate Ways"-Journey